The Bajang Child Swinging the Moon (101)
Now he fully realizes that he fights not for the pride of a warrior who wants to test the greatness of his lord but for a woman who has captured his heart.
Sumantri is aware that this fighting will continue without any winner. It all has to end. Otherwise, when will the fighting stop? Deep down in his heart he understands that this fighting will stop if he admits defeat and accepts the supremacy of Prabu Arjunasasrabahu. But he does not want to do that. To admit his defeat, he is ashamed, not before Prabu Arjunasasrabahu, but before Dewi Citrawati. He is confident that the king of Maespati will forgive him. However, won't this only belittle him in front of Dewi Citrawati?
Now he fully realizes that he fights not for the pride of a warrior who wants to test the greatness of his lord but for a woman who has captured his heart. This fighting is a blindness that must be borne by people who are in love. It turns out that he is risking his life not for the ambition he dreamed of when he was in Jatisrana. He even has the courage to give his life to the feeling of love, the end of which is unknown. It is not the meditation that has opened this all up. It is the fighting, as he wrestles with risking his life, that reveals who he really is.